My Journey, My Voice, My choice!

My life, issues, thoughts and voice

Wednesday, October 25, 2006


“if it makes no sense, it cant be real”
The final of house quoted this...

My question to this is: If it Is not real, is there a point? In which case, my life makes absolutely no sense, EVER, so then, that means it isn’t real and there is no point? Hmmm... its tricky!

Also: have u ever aid something, and then realised, that was the worst thing you have ever said? Well I did that, I didn’t believe what I said, and it isn’t true… and yet still I convinced myself I was right, even though honestly i was so wrong! ever done that?

Hmmm... life has so many questions that just cant be answered… IM SICK OF QUESTIONS

Monday, October 16, 2006

Gods plan

Jeremiah 29:11:
“For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Okay so, I am not sure where, if at all, somewhere it says that all our days are planned before they happen, each day is made before it happens right?

Okay so, many people believe that god loves us, he is our father, he will never forsake us, he loves us! Well, when I see a friend, some –one I love, when I see them hurting I want to do all I can to help them, everything in my “power” to help them, I got that way by trying to be Christ like, because jesus did all he could to help those who were suffering...

So then, why is it that, my days are planned before they happen, god knows what is going to happen, he plans my days, furthermore, why then, does he plan disasters? Why then, does he stand back and watch many people around me destroy me? Why then, does go sit up on his throne and watch as though it is a drama series on channel ten?

Why? Why does it seem as though gods word doesn’t add up, as I read it, as I understand it, God plans our days, he knows our days before they happen, he knows the pain we are about to feel and yet he does nothing to stop it? He sits and watches us hurt?

What the? Makes no sense, have i got it wrong? I spoke to someone about his today and she didn’t have the answer, do you?

Sunday, October 15, 2006

She is...

She is scared
She is lonely
She is confused
She is doubting
She is ashamed
& soon...
She is Dead?

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Are you aware?

“When you know a lot, you realize how little you know”

I was told this today as part of public speaking (EW)

Anyhow, well I think it can relate to A LOT of different things, but I relate it to, me, I know sounds very self centered, but at the moment I believe I have the right to be thinking about me…

So then, how can that relate to me? Well, I knew that where I was staying was not appropriate, I knew that something had to change, I knew that my VCE was struggling, I knew that My relationship with god was struggling, I knew A lot of things, and yet really I had no clue about much at all!

I had no idea how much I relied on my parents, I had no idea how easy I really had it, I had no idea how important the salvation army is to me and I had no idea how so many things can go wrong, I had no clue how fast things spread, I had no idea how many people think they are helping but really they are hindering… I had no clue, and there I sat day in day out thinking I knew all there was to know about my situation!

So then, are you like that? Are you actually aware of the situation you could be in, you could be causing? Are you aware of the extent that your actions can have? Are you sure you have thought enough about everyone involved, and what they might think of your decision? Lastly, Are you really aware of how much effect you can have? Do you believe that your actions are small? Maybe to you they are, but I can 100% guarantee you that your actions, while they are small to you can really affect other people, can have a really good, or really bad effect, so, I ask you…

Are YOU aware?

Tuesday, October 03, 2006


Maybe she is dying? Maybe deep down she is hurting, that maybe she was cracking, soon to be beyond repair?

This girl is far from happy, far from joyous, instead I see her as a dark, depressed, miserable and lonely girl, this is only recently since she began to feel completely rejected from her parents, she began to realize how alone she really is!

This girl is falling with no-one to catch her, this girl is surrounded by a thick mist, a mist she cant get through, a mist that is assisted by doubt, uncertainties, regret, hatred, lonliness, this girl is overwhelmed and hurt...

How can people beleive she is calm?

Monday, October 02, 2006

Which way?

Just a thought...

which way? Who knows?