WEIRD!

So, youth group was weird!

I haven’t been to a youth group without James, and well, I DON’T like it, not one bit, it was so empty, yet there were people there, lots! Like: about 10... (Yeah that’s lots more than I expected!)

I dunno, the atmosphere was as usual, just quieter, it just seemed empty, I dunno, it’s kinda hard to explain, maybe it was just me, well, I guess it kinda sunk in this weekend, before I was just angry, like REALLY angry, and that’s not saying I am not still angry, I guess it just sunk in that James, and most likely Saz won’t be coming anymore! Like, no 4:08, no bible study, nothing! It is so empty, and yeah, I enjoyed youth group, it was weird, but fun-ish! I dunno, I guess it’s just kinda really starting to sink in for me, as in, before this weekend I admit I hadn’t cried: only yelled and cursed (I know I shouldn’t!), but this weekend, on Saturday night, when I suddenly came to the realisation, now i cant stop! I dunno I guess I am just realizing that the two most important (physically) people in my life are leaving, and well, even though they say we will still see each other, it will NEVER be the same, and that scares the crap out of me! It all seems to be blown out of proportion!

What happened to the saying “forgive and forget?”
This is the most screwed up situation ever!