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Sunday, August 20, 2006

Quotes & Lyrics

"It seems strange but most of the best things and most fulfilling things in life will come out of something hard"

Someone really wise quoted the above! (Melissa)

I guess, I have been told by heaps of people, HEAPS! That these sucky times, they will end and I will grow stronger out of it, that I WILL overcome it, BUT! That’s so darn hard to see now! Seriously, I know they are right, and that I will get through it, I dunno… I dunno where I am heading with this; I guess I’m just sick of hearing it and not seeing any results!!!

Some lyrics from songs and what I get out of them…

“I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
A family in crisis that only grows older”


Why is that, our family... hurt us the most? The ones we love the most? Are the ones who hurt us the most? Who put the most pressure on us!

“I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me”

One small incident, whether you understand it or not, whether it makes sense or not, can destroy EVERYTHING, trust levels sunken MAJORLY! But… it’s weird though because the few people I don’t think I can trust are those I confide in, those I expect to tell, don’t, and those I don’t expect to tell, do… Go figure…

“It's funny when you find yourself looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want is to be over there”


It’s funny when we drift so far from things and we don’t even notice, it seems that we have almost unintentionally walked outside and the door has shut, and locked, we cant get back in, however everything that matters is in that room, unable to find the key! I have lost something and i have NO idea how to get it back!

“I've had enough of living life for only me
And reaching just for the things that keep destroying me”


Almost as though we have had enough of life the way it is now, we want to change it ASAP! However, we don’t know how to change it. How can we stop the things that are ruining us and then reach for the ‘right’ things???? What if, I know it sounds weird, but what if, in a sense we are not in control of what is happening, the only option… isn’t an option? Do you know what I mean?

Well, at the half past four meeting yesterday, Sarah did a playdoe prayer, we shaped a small pile of playdoe into a figure of what we would like to pray for, then, in a sentence or two explain it… I said…
“Confusing questions answered” I also should have said “difficult situations solved”

The amount of difficult situations is overwhelming, you know that Simpson’s image? The one where you have a small devil on your left shoulder and an angel on your right? Both telling you to do something? Well kind of like that, but then not, because, in my eyes, and I HAVE thought this through... both options are HORRIBLE! So... then... what do I do?

Again I have more to say... but I don’t know how to put it into words and my two NEW math’s assignments are looking at me and with bible study tonight i am officially screwed! I swear... Nomes is so right!

"VCE is a 'valid' excuse to torture teenagers!!!"

1 Comments:

At 20 August, 2006, Blogger charlotte said...

Hey girl,
You had some Kelly lyrics on there right?! And BarlowGirl too maybe? Any's...I'll talk to you later on...
Jac is guna type something...
what's black and at the top of the stairs?
a paraplegic in a house fire.
(and she's nasty! :p)

 

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